Pivotal Spiritual Experiences

I've been trying to reflect back on my life to remember pivotal spiritual experiences for me. What has shaped my trust in the Lord over the years? What can I cling to when I'm struggling? How do I know the Lord loves me and will help me through my current trials? 

One of my earliest impactful experiences happened when I was in high school. I was feeling so lost and alone one day. I don't even remember why now. It wasn't some big loss I had experienced, just normal teenage life. But I do remember feeling that I didn't know how to get over this mountain, whatever it was. I felt powerless. 

I specifically remember crying hard into my pillow, the kind of crying that leaves my face all red and splotchy. I had the bottom bunk and I still remember the feeling of cowering on that bed in despair. I remember praying. It wasn't an eloquent prayer - it probably wasn't even coherent  - but it sure was heartfelt. I knew I needed comfort and strength from the Lord. I was humble enough in that moment to recognize that I couldn't do this on my own. 

The answer to my prayer came in a more real physical way than I had experienced before or since. I felt as if I was cradled in the lap of the Lord, that He was physically holding me, comforting me, showing me that He knew exactly what I was going through and that He could help me through it. 

This scripture in Alma 7:12 perfectly describes how I see that experience. "And he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities." He knew what I needed in that moment. I know He loves me and will continue to strengthen and comfort me. 

I recently read the conference talk by Elder Ulisses Soares titled Jesus Christ: The Caregiver of Our Soul. He talked about how some things can never truly be understood from hearing someone else tell about their experiences. They have to be felt for yourself. This is one of those experiences. I can never really explain this to my kids or others in a way that does it justice. But I can say, give it a try. 

Photo: David Bowman

Images of Christ

I recently started a new collection of saved posts on Instagram just for beautiful images of Christ that I find. It's quickly getting filled with many beautiful paintings that so many talented artists have shared with the world. I love browsing other paintings that some of the artists have on their pages after finding one I really love. I feel peace as I look through my saved images and feel an increase of love for my Savior. 

My faith in Jesus Christ is continually growing. I learn so much as I study His life and His example. As I strive to follow Him, my life is better and I am happier. He brings me peace, love, comfort, encouragement, forgiveness, strength, knowledge, and so much more. I am eternally grateful for Him. 

A few years ago, I was studying the book of Psalms. I was really struck by the beautiful words of praise I found everywhere in that book. I found myself wanting to write a song of praise pulling from Psalms because it impacted me so much. Maybe I'll do it someday. 

The art here comes from the following artists: Simon Dewey, Hailey Kinsey, Castel Arts, The Wood Coop, Janelle Susan Cunningham, Fox and Pebble, and a couple unknown.