The temple is open again! After almost a year and a half of not being able to go, Nun and I were able to go back yesterday morning. Everyone I saw while there had a giant smile, and I was smiling right along with them. There is such a profound feeling of peace in the temple and the problems of the world almost seem to melt away when I'm there. Nothing else matters for that short time.
Unfortunately, I really struggle to stay awake in the temple. When I go to bed at night, I'm usually asleep about 5 minutes after turning out the light. I have to listen to audio books if I'm driving by myself for more than a few minutes because falling asleep while driving is a very real concern for me. It's a little too easy for me to fall asleep. Sitting in a quiet, peaceful place like the temple brings on the same problem. I once sat by my sister-in-law and told her to poke me if I started dosing and she was surprised how serious I was - I was not just joking. I pray before I go to have help to stay awake, I started keeping mints in my bag, and I repeat the words in my head to help me stay awake. These help some, but it still isn't perfect. I wish it wasn't so hard for me, but I know the Lord is aware of my struggle and my intentions and He blesses me despite my shortcomings. I really feel for Peter, James, and John in the Garden of Gethsemane because I would need the same rebuke.
The service we provide for others in the temple is incomparable. But I benefit so much, as well. I feel so much closer to the Lord in His house. I can take time to think about the covenants I have made and renew my determination to keep these covenants and serve others. The Spirit is easier to recognize and personal revelation is a little more clear. I feel the extra strong power of prayer as I pray for others in the temple.
I think one benefit of having the temples closed for so long is to help us appreciate them more and not take them for granted. I don't want to get lazy about going regularly. I want to bless my ancestors and enjoy the blessings I get from going to the temple frequently.
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